Almost Home

It has been two months since we were given the "word". And it has been 6 weeks since I last wrote on the blog.
So much has happened...in slow motion...that has seen Robin move from walking independently to being bed ridden, from talking freely to garbled speech because of the tumor in the roof of his mouth, from enjoying eating to rejecting all food completely, from reasonable calmness to frantic actions and reactions. No longer do we snuggle in our King-sized family bed but now he lies in a hospital bed in the small bedroom near by.

As I write this I wonder how he would feel about my choice of words and how would he look at what has developed. I think we knew from the start that the end would be hard but we really didn't understand how hard.

Our days are filled with waiting and wondering. If it were not for the love and caring of family and friends we would find it almost impossible to cope. We are blessed with the knowledge of our Heavenly Father's love.

After an especially hard night this week it was decided by the children that they would take turns staying with us through the night. With the presence of our sons and sons-in law we have the blessing of the Priesthood to comfort us. Our daughters have been or will be present and we know our daughters-in-law would be here also except for their responsibilities with their very young children. All the family is working together to make the passing of this time as smooth and peaceful as possible.

We still enjoy the phone calls, email, cards and letters from far off friends and family. Robin has very few lucid moments but enjoys a report from me of new happenings. When I told him that Carissa had been out Wedding Dress shopping he wanted to hear more. He bid Mandy a sweet farewell as she left to return to Maine and her Counselor duties. Most every day finds someone on our doorstep with a serving of something tasty for me and words of love and support. I can never tell you all of the sweet comfort I receive with knowing we are in your prayers and that our names are added to the prayer rolls of many Temples. Thank you so much.